Yesterday, I posted this 23 Week Belly Bump picture on my Instagram page.
It wasn't until after I posted it that I was quite shocked at how big my belly actually looked.
In real life, to me, I didn't look that pronounced. And grant it, it I sit up, which I am not doing so much of in this picture, it may not look so bad. At the end of the day, I had to accept that there was a child, in my womb, who is the size of a Baseball Mit now and there was nothing that I could do besides embrace it. There was absolutely no turning back now.
And mind you, this is exactly what I have been praying for - yet, still as it is happening I can't help but each moment feel like this whole experience is so surreal.
Every little thing that happens to me is like its happening for the first time.
Each first kick of the day...
and well, lately its been each first contraction of the day.
Braxton Hicks comes upon you and without warning.
This morning alone, I had a few contractions that felt like she just up and decided to roll into a ball and shove... I'm talking to her like "ma'am I am going to need you to slow down and chill all the way out!"
But I wouldn't trade it for the world.
I have been trying to remain focused at work and for the most part I have been successful. It's just a whole lot more added to my plate because I am such a planner. I can't help it.
I am an event planner and so my nature is to make sure that come D-day things are in place.
The one thing that I could not account for is how fast the baby would grow and how quickly that growth would slow me down.
I am not huge, however, before baby I was just about at the point of all the weight my knees and back could carry. So although I have only gained 4lbs on the scale, in actuality I have lost pounds elsewhere and now its concentrated right in the center of my body. My back and hips are screaming at me. So instead of me being able to do things (like at work, escort my offenders out the door) I just have to yell and give commands because sometimes just walking around my office gives me the blues!
The other thing that always has me second guessing myself is my Baby Registries.
First, it was where to register? I didn't necessarily want to register at the typical big box stores, but I was quickly reminded that a lot of my family does not live here and therefore will need a store that they can access where they are.
Then it was what to register for?
It's not as easy as "oh this is cute, lets add this to the list" like it is with the wedding registry. These are products that your child is going to use. It took a lot of research, a lot of review reading and even lots of YouTube product demonstrations for me to decide on what to go with at least to start.
Then once I made my mind up on something, someone else I know would give me their opinion on the product and the research would start all over.
All in all, its been fun but feels like I am in the middle of one long research project with my body being the main subject for experimentation.
One thing that I did recently was decide that I want to give cloth diapering a try.
Pray for me on this one.
But I have been researching this prior to getting pregnant and feel like at least while I am home on maternity leave that this may be a good option to have just in case. The brand I chose is more of a hybrid. Its most like a regular diaper because inside there is a disposable insert that you just remove with each change, so it prevents you having to pre-clean or wash diapers in your washing machine that are poopy and what not. Plus the insert flushes down the toilet and cuts back on smelling up the room and waste.
After all, when you see how cute they are... who wouldn't want to at least try them.
There are so many other products that I am excited to try out to see whats best for us..
the other thing that I am kinda worried about is... remember that lovely new hybrid that I just purchased not too long ago - umm, does a carseat fit in the back seat?
Guess we will soon see.
Oh yeah, I have been getting a few emails, texts, inquiries about where we are registered-
so in case you were also wondering where, click the link for our registry: